MY BUDDY ICON ON AIM IS TRENT REZNOR!!! that makes me happy. i love that guy. He's the "dirty, scary rocker" of 1994. Do i care? Yes. It makes him more attractive to me... i love "scary" guys.
So we got shit worked out. It's good for now. I still get paranoid every now and again. Like.... every day. But it's pretty much dumb stuff that I shouldn't even think about. Ah well. Things will be easier when we live together. It's frustrating to have to wait, but i can do it. and i will. i'm too stubborn not to.
This entry is pointless.... except that something creepy happened.... then again i always think it's creepy when strangers stare at me and smile and wave....
the doorbell rang. I thought my dad had gone to the store and I didn't know if anyone was going to answer it... so i went into the living room... and my dad had answered it and there were jesus freaks at the door. They handed my dad a pamphlet. one of them was talking to my dad.... and the other one was staring at me... creepily. like the kind of smile you smile when you're imagining someone naked. and he started smiling a little. and then he gave me a little wave, and i'm really creeped out by this why? because for one thing, jesus people are already scary. for another thing... i'm a freak. Weird makeup, piercings, everything. Uh yeah... I don't know. Strange...