I'm manipulative. I really am.... and it's fucked up. But I can't help it. Half the time I don't realize I'm manipulating people. It's only afterward, when I think it over, I realize I'm a huge bitch. You know what's really terrible? The other half of the time I know I'm doing it. Because I'm doing it on purpose.

Yeahyeah. I know. It's like an addiction. I can't seem to be motivated by other things other than getting people to do EXACTLY what I want them to do without them knowing it.

yeahyeah. maybe i'm not such a terrible person... i sure hope not.